My Job

As all of you know (though I don't believe anyone actually reads this blog), I got a "new" job. I am working in the same office that I did as a student, and I am doing pretty much the same work. The main difference - I am incorporating more and more into my daily routine, and I am now the supervisor to the 5 other students.

I love learning more and doing more! I love being busy, and I feel accomplished after a busy and stressful day. There are downsides to this - I am a true member of my family, and I get anxiety. I fear making mistakes, I fear being slow, I fear saying something stupid or seeming immature. Every time something slips out of my mouth I beat myself up over it. Luckily the sane side of me tries to reason, pointing out that what is done is done and I can only try and sound more mature and "perfect" next time.

I am learning a lot more at my job. There are constantly new projects getting started that I either take on myself, or I find someone else to take them on, then check back to make sure the work is being done. I love the variety that lots of different projects bring, you can't get bored when you're changing between projects constantly.

I like being a supervisor as well. Since my old boss left the office, I kind of filled in that void. I trained the new students, answered their questions, and made sure they had work to do. I feel like I have already explained this here...oops! Regardless, I am still enjoying this aspect. I feel like it will be good for my resume, but also just good for me. The hard parts are knowing when to intervene. If there is an error made - how do I approach the student? Was this a one time error? Or will they make it again? Am I being so repetitive that nothing will reach them? Or am I not showing them their mistakes enough? It is hard when someone else's performance reflects upon you.

Anyway, that was a lot of rambling just to say - I like my job, I like that I am getting more and more responsibilities every day, but as expected, there are stresses that come with it as well. I do wonder if I had the option to stay working there what I would decide. As it is now, I have to leave, and even if I were to try to stay I wouldn't do the exact same work. I wonder if I could keep doing what I do there forever if I would want to stay. Most everyone in the office has made a career out of their work. Those who don't know that I have only a temporary position comment on how I will be at 5 years, 10 years, 25 years, etc before I know it. How weird it would be, to think that I'd do the same thing for my whole life... Makes me feel old.