A Secret

Ok, I swear this is my final post tonight...

I have a secret. Ok, so for Christmas my parents bought me a DS. I LOVED it. I asked for it, of course, because I love video games. I played it all through break, and at least a few times a week during winter quarter. It was the perfect bedtime activity.

I took it to Edmonds one of the times I visited. When I came back up, I looked for it everywhere, but didn't see it. I didn't think too much of it - I assumed I left it in Edmonds. I was sad, but it wasn't the end of the world. I'd be back home in a month.

A few weeks ago when I went home, I looked for it. I assumed it would be out and about, on the bed in the bedroom or something. Clearly I had just forgotten it, why would it be hard to find? I looked for awhile, but eventually decided I must be crazy, that I did bring it back, and it must be in my horribly messy room (refer to previous posts).

So, I got back up here. I have spent the last few weeks searching my room endlessly, and I see it no where. Because my room has been so ridiculously messy, I knew that no matter how hard I search, it COULD still be in here. But cleaning my room tonight made me think... I really haven't seen it up here. And that is scaring me.

As I mentioned, I didn't search tooooo close when I was at home, because after not seeing it right away I assumed it must be in B'ham in my messy room. I still have hope its hiding down there somewhere, and that its just taking me horribly long to find it because in a search that would normally be back and forth, it takes a month between looking in one place or another.

But I am so scared. What if it isn't down there? Where else could it be? I know I carried it to school with me a lot, and kept it in my bag. The last time I remember having it in my bag was one of the times I went to tutor, right around the last time I saw it at all. Maybe I didn't bring it down to Edmonds at all? Maybe I accidentally left it at my bosses house? Though wouldn't she have told me if another DS showed up at her place?

And now that its been so long, I feel silly. Like maybe Dad saw it and put it somewhere. But since its been 2-3 months since I lost it, won't it be weird to just now ask? I mean, this quarter has gone by SOOO ridiculously fast, but still... thats a long time.

And I'm sad. I have torn this room apart, looking and looking. I WANT my DS. There is a REASON I asked for it. I feel guilty because I'm so poor and its really one of my only recent possessions of worth. So yea, that's my secret. I lost my cool new toy only months after getting it, and that was months ago...

If any of you guys have any ideas on where it could be, let me know. I refuse to believe it was stolen, it must be SOMEWHERE. I will find it. Eventually. :(